"Why~~~ why are you so attractive?"

You've been making me go insane until I find it's hard to forget you... The charming smiles of yours, your tanned skin, the passionate-toned voice of yours, and the smell of your existence has been really hard to be forgotten in my mind from the first day I met you. But you never actually know, that I have fallen in love with you. Just with you~ And I've realized that falling in love is so difficult and suffering.

I thought I will get over you if I stayed away from you. I tried to stay away... but you appear in front of me directly everyday... And every attempt of mine to avoid and get over you has been destructed... just by you... without noticing it yourself.

"Why~~~ we are NOT belonged to each other. But why do you still care about me? I'm just a nobody in your mind. I know I'm not even listed in your heart. I just... know."

I really hate being with you. Don't you know you've been making me suffocating? Don't you know you've broken my heart? Don't you know every time you approach me makes me crying in my own heart? I'm starting to hate myself for fallen in love with you... It's really crushing my heart into smaller pieces after my heart is being broken... Even to these days, I've been dreaming about you without my desperation. I know and truly understand that we'll never be together. Just because you're... not... gay.

"I know all these words I've said indicates that I'm selfish... I know I shouldn't be but I just can't help myself... How I wished to be brainwashed at this moment~"