☼ The Dreamer's Diary ☼

Preparations for the final examinations have been so overwhelming until I had no time to update any posts... I'm so sorry if anyone of you is wondering where on earth I'd been to... I'm so sorry!

Well, guess what? I received quite a number of presents from my family and friends lately... A parcel arrived my doorstep accepted by my dad from the mailman at 12pm three days ago when I was doing my last minute studies at school just 2 hours before the Math exam. I actually didn't know about the arrival of the parcel until my dad gave me a call and told me about it.

I headed home after the exam to find out what was delivered to me. It was a book delivered by my 3rd eldest sister in U.K. titled "I'm Not Myself These Days" by Josh Kilmer Purcell, a memoir of a gay man struggling for survival and everything else he needs in the society. I actually had searched for this book for 4 months at every single local bookstore but it isn't available at anyone of them so I asked my sister to buy it for me all the way from U.K. I wonder if she can tell that I'm gay by reading that book... or maybe she just buys it without reading it?

(Notice : I'll post a review about this book much later around next week)

After that, at 6:47pm, my eldest sister visited home with her husband. They just came back from Bali trip bringing some bags of souvenirs. I let you guess what she has bought me... What's in your mind now? Haven't you got any idea? Well, I guess I have to tell you that I actually received a...

Yeah, I know it sounds weird that she bought it for me without any knowledge that I'm gay. She even bought it for my dad and my younger brother as a practical "joke" which I don't even find it to be funny... Use it? I don't know... and I don't want to know... LOL

If you're playing an MMORPG game called Maple Story, you'll understand what I'll be taking about here... Some online friends I've known gave me a total of 250, 000 Mesos as a token of friendship... And if you happen to play it, you can either track or message me in MapleSEA. Want to know my playing character's name and the game server I'm using? E-mail me... but I'll decide if I want to tell you... LOL

So that's all for today... I'll definitely post the photograph of the dildos tomorrow and do comment... Have a great day and stay tuned, stay cute!

To all friends and readers who are currently in their romantic relationships with their partners, I wish you all a Happy Valentines Day.

Although I'm not really celebrating Valentine's day, it is indeed an important day to spend more time with my family today. Hey, don't you agree that family love is important too?

Besides, I do believe that if you have found someone you truly love and care, Valentine's Day will actually happen everyday. Why do I say so? That is because my brothers-in-law have provided quite a lot of special presents, good surprises and nice places to date for my elder sisters from the day they firstly commit their relationships until now after their marriage... LOL

Before I officially end this post for today, here's a photo of my new dog wearing a shirt with the word 사랑하다 Saranghada (Means "to be fond of") all over it. Click the photo to get a larger view...

I'm using this opportunity wishing all my friends and everyone who is reading this blog a Happy Chinese New Year although I still have to do some revisions for upcoming final examinations... It seems that I'll be having a quiet week for this new year as there aren't any firecracker being played in the neighborhood (*sigh~)... Even family gathering dinner turned into a disaster just now (I'll post more about this and other posts about celebrations next week). Anyway, here's the eCard you can play below:

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I DON'T BELIEVE IN THE GIVEN NUMBERS AT THE END OF THE CARD EITHER!

I saw my dad squatting outside at the door frowning, holding his forehead with his left hand and a can of Beck's beer with his right hand. He kept quiet but he gave me some sign language that my pet dog has died being knocked down by a car at a highway near my house. I was shocked but at the same time, I was unable to show any facial expression... Then, I also saw both of my eldest sister's eyes were red and swollen a little because of crying.

Why? Why my dog has to be the victim of this tragedy? Couldn't that driver lower down his gear to let his fucking car slow down? Couldn't he just brake for the sake of sparring a life? I wonder what the driver's driving license is for when he already has the potential to knock down other lives... Now that he has taken my precious pet's life, he should be "blessed" with the upcoming tragedies awaiting him. I'm sure he will...

I'm feeling so emotionless today...

"Sometimes I Wish I Could Save You...

Coming out, is a phase when people announce their sexual orientation. Although I've partially come out within people I know especially friends, I still remain closeted in my family. Today is just another day that I heard another homophobic statement from my dad to my brother in a moving van on the way back home.

"Son, the youngest uncle of yours is a faggot. He's nothing but a total loser that he french kissed a man and someone on the street saw it. Damn disgusting!"

I kept quiet and looked outside the window... It was raining... and because of the quote, I've actually noticed that I'm being noted not to let anyone in my family know that I'm actually gay. I can't imagine any further if my dad finds out one day by reading this blog... Freaky, really freaky...