Alright, I've finished High School and felt bored so I've worked as a waiter and a cashier in a restaurant on weekdays and as a paperboy on weekends for about 3 months. Finally, after some hard work that I've never had before, sometimes being scolded for no reasons and being nagged for some communication errors with some other people, I've finally discovered that the real world outside is complex. Not to mention about homophobics at 1st but also money. YES, MONEY! It bugs me A LOT when it comes to paying fees for my upcoming college courses (March Intake). But my presentation at work is deteriorating just because I work not because I'm interested but because of money. I'm not happy and tired with my workplaces too. But what can I do? And now, I've understood the hardships of my parents to work outside in order to make their lives, raise me and my siblings. Teenage years are supposed to be fun and overwhelming but I don't see much fun stuffs happening in my life.

Dealing with people has been never an easy job for me too. I know, I suck at speaking, writing and even listening at Chinese Language because I'm mostly educated in English. But it's not an excuse to discriminate me for not understanding what they want me to know. Of course, in here, the country where I'm living now (like I've said I'm NOT from China), there are 2 types of Chinese Community. The "English-Educated Community" and the "Mandarin-Educated Community". I asked my parents before why they've wanted me to receive education in English.

But my dad just claimed, "English-Educated Chinese are counted to have 'Higher Social Status' of Chinese people here."

However, I don't find that compliment as a very true statement. In here, the dominating society is the Mandarin-Educated Chinese Community especially the adults. Politicians are counted in the community too. Here, if you're a White or a Hispanic or whatever races that are not counted as Asian, you'll find them rude (or at least they'll be showing you a big fake smile and pretending to be polite and friendly). It's not that I'm judging them but this is actually true.

During my days at High School, MOST Chinese classmates just asked me, "Oh, you don't speak Chinese? Then you're counted as the people who has plucked their sinew. Shame on you."

Siblings? Well, they're never supportive no matter what I want or what I do. We just don't get along due to some boundaries between our different languages. Well, I can't blame them for not understanding me. But what I've not satisfied with them is their way of speaking. Can't they just shut their mouths, listen and not judging people?

I've seen a bunch of other Chinese teenagers who are just about the same as me were humiliated at their workplaces too. I'm even forced to speak in Mandarin in public during my work time and when the pronunciations go wrong. They just laugh out LOUD and don't correct me. 'Higher Social Status'? I DON'T THINK SO!

It has been really hard to deal with the society here as discriminations are EVERYWHERE. These are some qualities that people discriminate against in the society I live:
1) Your skin is black.
2) You're gay.
3) You don't speak Chinese (or your mother tongue if you're not Chinese)
4) Your religion/race is _____ (whatever but sadly, they care)

I know other countries have some of these issues too. And I know those who are discriminated are actually NOT alone. I'll try to stay strong. NO MATTER WHAT!