☼ The Dreamer's Diary ☼

Rain... It always reminds me of every single sad memories which make me feel some degrees of loneliness and sorrow inside. I can still remember there was one time; 13th March 2004; I cried alone under the rain due to betrayal from some people who were so-called-friends... But now, it has become a part of my history which turns me to be less gullible but more fragile... Yes, the history of life... Everyone of us must have some sad memories in the past that has turned us to be stronger from the outside but sometimes weaker from the inside...

Back at school, I've realized everyone; all my new friends, attend to study with full of hopes in order to fulfill their dreams. The cooperations between them is unusually extraordinary yet outstanding. We hangout, laugh and share informations about ourselves. But I want to know... How long will our friendship last? By looking at their witty looks and expressions of staying strong, I always wonder how their hearts would sound like every time when they strain in hardships and disappointments. Is everyone of us destined to struggle for everything we wanted?

The people I envy most; Old friends, most of them have immigrated overseas to further their studies and to continue their lifestyle doing whatever they want to do. Of course, they promise to come back for visiting me sometime if they really miss me. But I really want them to know that I don't really want them coming back to visit me. It's always better for them to continue their lives doing what they've actually wanted to do so that there will be lesser regrets in the very near future... And I've been wondering... will I be granted to get the opportunity to do something I've been hoping to do for long time?

Comparisons... I wonder why it has become the key to diversity between humans to gain self-consciousness... In my opinion, I do believe that everyone is different and that makes us to be unique. It has been very offensively hurting people's heart and turns situations to be very ugly when comparison is made between them because everyone of us has our own unique personality... Why not staying back and accept the way they are?

(... to be continued)